Yesterday, my second day off caffeine, I was grumpy for sure. My brain hasn’t been working so great; my usual short memory has become almost nonexistent.
The worst part is waking up, looking forward to that cup those many cups of delicious coffee and realizing it’s not an option. It’s not just the caffeine I miss, it’s holding a warm mug and taking in the delightful aroma of freshly brewed black coffee.
Sam and I went on a long float down the Fox River yesterday, Sam in his canoe and me in my kayak.  The water was 35 degrees and the air a little less; by the time we reached Sam’s dock nothing sounded better than a steaming cup of joe.
Realistically, this whole acid-reflux thing- if that’s what it is- isn’t life-threatening. It is a minor nuisance that just makes me very uncomfortable. But in the end it’s my own damn fault, I did this to myself- so it’s up to me and me alone to fix it.
I try not to complain too much, even though Claire may say otherwise.
Yesterday was tough, but today is better. It’s noon, well after what would have been my first cup, and I’m not totally out of it. I even made breakfast – smoked brisket hash with toast and two over-easy eggs- and washed it down with water. A major achievement, I think. Nothing goes like breakfast like coffee. I wasn’t sure it was possible to enjoy a nice breakfast without it.
I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, I’m hoping soon I’ll get back to normal and see what “no coffee Chris” is like. Hopefully my brain functions will come back. On Friday I could barely hit the right letters on my keyboard, today it’s much easier.
…But there is no question- once I give my esophageal sphincter time to get strong again, I will absolutely go back to coffee. Assuming all goes well, I’ll limit my intake to reasonable levels. After all, it wasn’t coffee’s fault, it was mine for drinking so much of it.
I’m sure I’ll find a way to exist without coffee in these 5-6 weeks, but given the choice I’ll take coffee every time.
Maybe those are the words of an addict; based on my mental and physical state this weekend, I’d say they are definitely the words of an addict.

2 responses

    • Yup, I’ve got some caffeine-free tea I’ve been drinking. It covers the “warm mug” thing, but seriously lacks in the flavor and wake-me-up department!

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